I'm back.

Tongiht I was Marc, Laura, and Devin. It was a blast that I don't often let myself have. I am seriously concidering getting myself into a singles ward. I've never wanted that before. EVER. I've hated the thought of it. I imagedned it as people standing around trying to get married. Student ward was a little diffrent cuz we all lived there and didn't have a home ward. I don't know how I feel about this feeling which in itself is confusing. I saw a best friend tonight, a guy who has now only on one ocassion let me down, but it was my fault anyways. He is great, which leads to more confusion. I want to be a nanny. I want to be there for little kids when their parents can't. I want to play really fun games and know their favorite meal and make it perfectly and be silly often and know their other favorite things and take them to school and be someone they can depend on and then see how happy they get when their parents do come home and be part of their family and then go home to mine. I have an interview with a lady in Queen Creek on Saturday! I am so excited!! I have not been so excited for a decision like this in a long time! Confusion aside, I am now in a good place. So for now I am content and the rest will come until another low and that is life and I am learning.