Monday, January 26, 2009

when I'm good and ready.

I'll deal with this.



At work I'd get thinking about growing up
and panic.
My chest would get tight
and I felt like I couldn't breath.
Thoughts of money
and school
and tuition
and books
and rent
and insurance
and work
and the economy
and future
and all of it just
feels haunting.
I try to put it out of my mind
but I can't.
I need to because
I just can't handle it all,
I'm not sure when I can.
But I will.
When I'm ready.
And I'm not.

1 comment:

Susan said...

OK here's the thing...
-be happy
-be kind
-choose the right
-move forward
-improve yourself day by day.

Don't worry so much about growing up and being a responcible adult. One day your look around and you'll be "UP".