"I had been so terrified to trust,so many times I’d been reduced to dust"

I somehow keep picking out the negative words in these songs:

"Well I’ve been treated like a valentine

That’s been ripped apart and left behind

I’m a fragile girl

In a crazy careless world

My dreams were torn and scattered on the floor."

about 10 months...

Apparently not enough time for me to recover from a destroyed heart.

my eyes hurt, this is the only thing they produce water for, for a long time

they won't reason with me like they do about other topics.

I can't shake this right now and don't know why or how to end it.