This morning I got asked a somewhat simple, conversational question that went like this:
"so do you want to work in the K-12 setting?"
My answer was pretty causal something like:
"yea maybe but I'm not quite sure exactly what I want to do"
But inside my head something totally different was going on cuz my crazy self translated that question into my language of everythinghasgreatermeaningandyoumusthavealltheanswersrightnow so my mind conversation when like this:
"what are you going to do with the rest of your life?"
besides my immediate reaction of -keep it together and just answer like a normal person!
what my brain answered to that question was:
"I HAVE NO IDEA, i'm so scared of real life I often think I'll lose it and just thinking about being done with school makes me feel like my life as I have known it for the past 17 years of my existence is going to change drastically and I don't know how to be a grown up, I want to live with my mommy and daddy forever and only have 2 bills and not get kicked off the family phone plan and not have to worry about eventually getting a job so I can move out and be a productive member of society...
luckily all my mentor heard was a reserved "yea, not sure".
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